aggression as a defense mechanism
Jan. 17th, 2026 05:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
paroxetyneWhenever I feel disrespected, or when things suddenly went wrong, I find myself to react and handle things aggressively. To be honest, my anger is the reason why I don't truly trust myself to be as close to anyone. It's something I have always noticed on myself and yet I can't do anything about it at all, no matter how hard I try I'll just.. get so mad and angry that my words and actions will end up hurting me and others.
Could it be because of the way I grew up? The people around me? I don't know. I've been the bully, I have insulted many, I broke promises, stuffs like that made my anger grow into hatred as well. It fucks my mind up so much because I don't know what made me so hateful, I cannot think for myself, I cannot reflect on my feelings first because I will always respond with aggression.
I don't understand why I just can't stay calm.
Could it be because of the way I grew up? The people around me? I don't know. I've been the bully, I have insulted many, I broke promises, stuffs like that made my anger grow into hatred as well. It fucks my mind up so much because I don't know what made me so hateful, I cannot think for myself, I cannot reflect on my feelings first because I will always respond with aggression.
I don't understand why I just can't stay calm.
